I know your type.

I miss my boyfriend 

We live in a beautiful world.

So my weekend was so good. Drew my boyfriend well he is pretty awesome. I like spending time with him he's fun. Saturday I finally got to hang out with Samantha I freaking miss the ho. We went and watched Drew's motocross race and it was interesting it was my first time ever being at one. I really want to learn how to ride Drew said he would teach me so he better. I'm just going to bug him until he does. So I always thought that Coldplay was like a sucky band that sounded the same with everything they did but dang was I wrong like I feel bad for ever saying they sucked. Like every time they came on the radio I would always say the 40 Year Old Virgin thing like " you know how I know you're gay you listen to Coldplay" thing but thats so not true there pretty freaking good. I am really in to them now. I was on the fox racing website today and I pretty much fell in love with all of their clothes. Like there so cute I could spend like hundreds of dollars on that website. I really need to get another job I need more money like big time need more money. Like my stupid bank account my in the negative it sucks. I hate that I spend money like I do. I can not walk in to Hollister without spending money in that store. Like thats how I just screwed myself over with my account and having no money. I owe my mom and dad so much money too. This really blows. I'm really excited for these next few months. Like May it going to be pretty good. Ill be done with school. I'm going to the Indy 500. Samantha is going to prom and I get to take pretty ass pictures of her. My dad is going to be 49 haha. I'm getting my retainer impression done. Then its June which is going to be the best month ever. Samantha is graduating. I get my braces off on June 11th at 11:00 I can't wait. I get to start teaching swim lessons again. I get a hot tan. Then on June 18th I'm leaving for Tennessee cause my cousin is getting married in this sick place. June 20th I will be turning 19 and Ashley will be getting married. I'm pretty sure tho I'm most excited to get my damn braces off it's been to long and I am so ready to look my age. I am pretty thrilled for my birthday though. I feel so old tho like 19 thats almost 20. Which I am no longer a teenager thats so freaking scary to me. I really would like a record player for

my birthday that would be so sweet. I want to get Brand New's Deja Entendu on vinyl and The Receiving End of Sirens The Earth Sings Mi Fa Mi on vinyl. That would like make my life.

Also like a huge poster of Led Zeppelin. Some movies money and clothes the normal. And of course a 35mm digital camera. That would be so sick to have in Tennessee. Oh I wish.

My lungs are fresh and your's to keep, kept clean and they will let you breathe

My G-ma is the strongest person I know today is her 75th birthday and she was told 3 years ago that she would only have six months left to live. After she was told this is fell broke her hip had heart surgery and had to stop radiation on her lung cancer. She amazes me she's my hero. She has truly shown me what it means to not give up.  <3

The stars in your eyes they are burning you alive.

It's funny how the words of a child can be,

There is this girl and I am ready to beat the fuck out of her. Like the shit she pulled you just don't do that to my best friend like she has something coming for her. I just don't get how people can be such cold heartless bitches. Who ever told her it was okay to treat people like that really messed up. I am a big believer in karma and it's a bitch it will come back around and get her. 

Dairy Queen opens tomorrow I am super stoked. I work at a day care and we are taking all the kids there tomorrow. 

I am so pissed about spring break I was supposed to be spending it in California, but my friends mom didn't talk to her brother and they didn't buy our tickets so now we are not going. I'm really bummed about it, but I guess it's okay I mean I get to spend more time with Tyler now. I just look at it as everything happens for a reason so there is a reason I am not going there. 

I really need to start taking pictures again. I miss photo so much. Like I am so confused about what I want to do with my life now. I love photography and it is what I should be doing with life, but I love kids and I want to be a teacher. Ugh whatever I will figure it out I still have four more years of college. 

My BestFriend Corey<3

He is the most amazing guy I have ever met. He has always been there for me through everything. He has never given up on me. He does everything possible to make everyone around him happy. He never takes anything for granted and helps everyone, even if he doesn't know you that well, cause he's just that kind of guy. He is the greatest guy I know. I love him <3

I gave you nothing, I took you nowhere, You're still listening

Schools a bitch. And that is all I have to say about that.

I really miss him <3

This is all a dream, That's what I'll be singing.

I just decided to start one of these.

JB BRUBAKER<3

Ill take him.

It's so late and I have class tomorrow morning, and I really do not want to go. I am so sick of school. I figured out today how much I really do love august burns red. I was in the car with my little sister listening to back burner and she was all your a freaking weirdo, I guess it's uncool to have your older sister rock out to sick break downs while the old man in the car next to you is staring in disgust. Whatever. The Blackhawks won today which was very nice. Except for the freaking stupid goal that LA got that they shouldn't of gotten, cause Havlat was the one that pushed the dude in to the net which knocked it off and pushed the net back. Oh well bs. The referees hate us. Last night was funny. I stayed in, my little sister had her friend Chris over and he wanted me to dye his hair. We went out and bought this dye. After I put it on I started to cook and totally for got about him. Left his hair dye on for like 50 minutes and it was only supposed to be on for like 20. His head was black. Then later that night we were all watching some stupid movie and Chris elbowed me in my nose. I just got it pierced on Friday, I was ready to kill him. He started to be a little prick. Then started to whine like a little girl after I punched him like six times in the arm. When I woke up This morning Cali told me that her boyfriend Jim got grounded for trying to sneak out and come over. That would of been real cool at four in the morning. She's to old, which makes me feel so old.